It feels so bad when you feel like no one loves you. Whats even worse, is never finding the words to say. It just makes me so mad that I can’t find anything meaningful to say when I need to. I love you. It just destroys me so much that I can’t eat, sleep … Nothing! And I’m so sorry for all of this, I just don’t want to move on without you. At all. I don’t know what I’m going to do. I suffer everyday holding back all this love, holding back all this affection. Nothing in this world can buy me more time to tell your heart to listen to me. I refuse to just sit here and pretend that nothing is happening, because I know whats in the mist. I know you feel some type of way! And I’m so tired of having this just sit here!!! My brain is just filled with the thoughts of you, ALL THE TIME! Its so embarrassing!!! I would gladly trade every fiber of my being just to be with you. I hate myself so much for all this! Why did all of this have to happen?! All I ask is that you don’t give up on me! This unbearable pain is just so overwhelming! …………. >_<
